As it turns out, A chose not to bring up money at all in her email back to me, so now I feel like sort of a b*tch for assuming that she would stoop so low. I ran the whole exchange by another friend (the A that I usually write about, actually) and she pointed out that A is not going to ever give me what I want – which is a no excuses apology – so I need to either accept the apology she did give and get over it or sack the friendship. That really put the whole thing in perspective, and I’m choosing to just get over it. I wrote her an email today where I basically said that I don’t think that she and I will ever see eye to eye about the birthday/text message apology thing, and that at this point we just need to agree to disagree. It’s weird, because I usually get over things really quickly but for some reason this is just really gnawing at me. I think it’s because I really, really don’t see where she’s coming from and I just don’t understand how she could possibly try to justify her behavior, rather than just apologizing. We’ll see how the friendship fares; I don’t know how able I am to put in the effort to be friends with someone who won’t own up to mistakes.
I’ve been feeling sort of crappy in general recently, so maybe if this same thing had happened a few months ago it wouldn’t have been such a big deal. I’ve been eating badly and taking long naps when I get home that make it impossible to sleep at night, and I just constantly feel generally lousy. I also want my personal loan to be paid off now so I can start working on paying off my student loans now so that I can be out of debt now; that is, I’m impatient with my finances. This is always a bad time of the school year; the kids are getting antsy for summer, there aren’t any long weekends coming up, and testing is starting soon. But I just found out we get a whole week for spring break this year, so maybe that break will get me out of my funk.
Do you think I did the right thing with A? Or should I have stood my ground more?